severe short-duration depression/melancholia

it seems that whatever i do, i can't seem to stay mad. after i get into it, it suddenly becomes inconsistent. i can't seem to stay mad at leiron after i speared him. i can't seem to stay mad at the world after my screw-up. i can't seem to stay mad at someone after i promised myself that i would back away from her for at least one day to stop the jeering and the yihees.

maswerte kayo. depression is certainly not in my character. which is probably why i get thoughts of [physically] hurting the ones i love. just to start a fight/argument. help me. i've got a psychological problem which i've single-handedly diagnosed.

the grand plan.

must i really reveal my grand plan for christmas?

all i can probably tell you is that involves a certain Eygptian structure, the maiden, Santa Claus, and a text message. there. figure that out. i dare you.

for some reason

a few weeks ago i contemplated on having my hair shaved. but now i want to keep it and grow it. i wonder what i'm going to want next.

oh, i want glasses too. diba angelic? :P

speaking of

i was reading angelic's [seemingly abandoned] blog and from the entries, i'm assuming that she has a problem with fitting in. if i had anything to say about it, (and i do, i guess) i say that fitting in is now completely obsolete. i don't care on whether i fit in or not. i've given up on that long ago, and when you actually do 'fit in' in our batch, suddenly you begin to hang out at the cpa, and suddenly you begin to walk around with the bad boys. (i'm not bashing anyone, but if you have a problem with what i just said, i ask you to take it up with me personally.) which is why i don't want to fit in. i just live on one thing, if you know you can defend yourself, you're just fine on your own, outside the crowd.

now, let me bash some of the idiots. i respect some of those who actually fit in, but some are just plain unacceptable. like:

- carlos urra. the fact that my mom is in the PA doesn't change anything. the fact that you can't fight without bringing in a cohort is sickening.

- justin reyes. ever since when, i've had a score to settle with this idiot, and i was actually surprised to see him walking around at the beginning of the year. i had thought that they gave him the boot. well, he's so dumb that it takes him a week to change a light bulb. i feel sorry for your parents, who have to cope up with your utter stupidity.

- bea munoz. who the hell do you think you are, proclaiming that you're a heartthrob? the real heartthrobs don't do that, and if they did, they won't be called heartthrobs anymore.

okay, i have to censor one now.

- **** *****. it's sad that people are still falling for you, when they don't realize that they'll net nothing from liking her.

and, finally, a special mention:

- jr flores. stop hounding my sister. friend of my bro or not, you'd better watch yourself.

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so this last part pretty much defies what i've said at the top. but then they always said rivalries run deep. wait, do they say that? i don't know. correct me on that one.

bye. ap and trig 'round the corner, sophomores (who are smart)!