if only life were as sweet as a duane allman guitar solo

i should be sleeping now, for tomorrow marks the unofficial start of college life once again - held on pause for roughly a month at least, out of my own choosing to eschew summer classes. eventually i'll have to give in to that toxic setup, but that's a bridge to be crossed when i finally come across it next year.

so, what have i accomplished this summer?

nothing. absolutely nothing.

as the days slowly drew summer to a close the other week, i came up with the thought of actual regret for not taking summer classes. anything, i reasoned, would be better than sitting on my duff 6 out of 7 days a week (that seventh day is usually myself and the lady meeting somewhere, somehow, from the malls to her house) and overthinking the hell out of my mind. it was, largely, another summer of boredom and loneliness, and as i sit here late at night, dreading the trip to school and the entire enrollment process (among other fish i am forced to have to fry) tomorrow, regret, all of it, wells up and hits me. hindsight is, after all, always 20/20.

of course, i am to remember this summer when summer comes around next year, just as i reminisce about last summer this summer. that summer, spending late nights slaving away on world of warcraft (funny how i still miss it now), consuming cup after cup of microwaved chocquik during said slaving, cooking for the family while mother gets to be in canada, just plain being a sad soul. but it was fun, and easier, because i didn't have much to worry about like i do now. most worries still remain the same, but some new ones have added themselves to the roster. well, we live and we learn.

i have learned, in my life, that things always, if not most of the time, turn out better than i fear them to be; however, this has never stopped my mind from dreaming up the worst circumstances and consequences possible. i wish i could just stop it from functioning altogether, because it really just hinders my ability to just live. this is why i come to you now, speaking of regret and reminiscing, as if the words that will soon be printed and spread electronically would help in alleviating anything. well, it does do a bit of good, and it never hurt to try.

anyway, despite feeling fatigue in these tired bones, i'm pretty sure i'll be spending a good amount of time tossing and turning before i finally drift away, and i expect my sleep to keep being broken up due to me continually checking the time on the VCR, to know if it's okay to sleep a few more or to just wake up and get it over with.

i think i need some caffeine in my life. oh, and i'm a little hungry. wonder if i should get a post-midnight snack before i try and hit the hay.

P.S. there is actually a lyricwiki! life just gets better.

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